Some prefer to hide it. Some write it into a cheesy poem. Some sing it. Some heal it with pray and happiness. Any way, we are walking pass each other without knowing the real struggle inside.
We are all imperfect. Smile over the pain. Live over the tears.
I wrote it 3 days ago in the morning at office. Feel a bit broken-hearted back then, haha well not really about "love", but yes a bit broken. My self-esteem somewhat dropped at that time. You know, the time when you feel vulnerable and unwanted.
But then I realized that everybody might be feel the same way, with a different issue.. that everybody is struggling inside, hiding the pain with smile and laughter.
I do that recently. There is a chaos in my mind (probably due to the woman jumbled-boxes-mind thing that I wrote on the previous post :p), a battle to categorize and finish every tasks. Sometimes I feel so alone and broken. But life goes on, I have to function as human, means I have to do daily routine, I have to socialise, I have to do this and that. And some of the things that bumped to me along the days, weeks, and months can lift and cheer me up--which is nice. :)
So, Hawa, you may be feel bitter in the morning (or night, depend on the event :p), but eventually you will feel better.
It is true the stimuli of both physical and emotional pain is processed in the same way in the brain. Basically our brain cannot distinguish which wound is physical and emotional because both are coded in one language: "hurt". What I'm trying to say that an emotional pain is like a physical damage, that finally recovered as the time goes.
Well.. that's what life all about, eh? :)
Oh iya, satu lagi, hampir lupa. Karena tadi pagi juga felt miserable about moving on (oh God no, it's not about my break up) and then my best friends from Hayang Nyingkah United comforted me with these golden words:
Kalo kata Veness: "Yakin aja sama apa yang udah dipilih. Soalnya mau milih mana juga pasti ada resikonya."
Kalo kata Mei: "Yang tidak mudah dari N salah satunya memang ini, tapi untuk itulah kita bikin U, biar sama-sama menguatkan dan H kita akhirnya tercapai."
Yes, Hayang Nyingkah United (HNU) is a Whatsapp group. Dibuat karena kami bertiga memiliki visi misi yang sama (you Sundanese probably can guess it easily :p). Sori advice-nya Mei emang rada decoded hahaha, typical Mei. :))
Cheers!
