Romance?

Some of my friends--well, those who have known me for years but never got close--were quite surprised when I told them that my ex and I broke up. Understandable, because me and him were together for more than 5 years and people assumed that this kind of couple would end up in marriage. Early twenty years old of me thought the same. But, life experiences showed me that the future cannot be exactly predicted and life is simply a super-gigantic maze with full of surprises in every turn. The longer we are with someone doesn't mean we know each other well and become an 'other half' to one another. If it doesn't seem right, then it's probably really not okay to be together.

That was the reason why I ended the relationship. They say someone who ends it first is the mean one, the one who gives up, sometimes the one who finds a new one, and then left the other to suffer--either in a short or a long time. Yeah, people will judge anyway. In my point of view, we were neither the angel or the devil. The decision was taken because if the relationship proceeded, it would hurt both of us. Though, he seemed a bit annoyed when I explained why we had to breakup.

But, the fact that he is now with someone new and probably planning to get married soon proofs the consideration. He ditched the feeling for our relationship quickly and apparently I'm an easy thing to be replaced, haha. Or it might be just boys. Either way, judging by some of his "look-at-me-I-have-an-exciting-love-life" photos, I guess he really is happy. And me? I guess this 2015 has been a great time to be alive, to restart my life. Oh, I broke up in early 2015, by the way, on February. Some things has been re-evaluated and started in a good way. Not big things, just baby steps that hopefully lead to my dreams.

Hadiah dari Mei, katanya; "congratulation on being single!" LOL

And am I seeing someone? No. Not something serious, not yet. Well, yeah, crush a bit on someone, but that was it. My boss even set me up with one of his friends and we got out once, but nope. I really don't have a romance business now, you know; the butterflies on stomach, the anxious feeling when he doesn't text for hours, or going out "pacaran" or "malem mingguan" we call it. And how do I do with it? Happy. I'm free as a stallion. Except I'm still the youngest child who lives with her protective parents in Indonesia, I hope you can imagine what kind of "free" I'm talking about, I probably have less freedom than a foal.

What to do after breakup: meet the lovable mayor Ridwan Kamil after a movie night with girlfriends

Also, because I'm an introvert, I do enjoy spending time alone. It gets me thinking; it would be delightful if my next significant other is similar to me, personally. I know that I couldn't get a carbon copy of myself because that would be creepy, but I wish he would enjoy spending quiet time together without being awkward, love to read and write, share the same interests and sense of humor. Well, yeah, of course, he should be a good moslem, mentally and physically healthy, intelligent, and other qualities which I have to improve as well. I'm fully aware that I'm also a bag of failures so the relationship where the two people truly become a positive influence to each other would be lovely. Having someone close who actually talks to the heart in a daily basis is important, apparently, cause I'm a bit antisocial since the breakup. :p

Well anyway, until he comes, I want re-adjust my life. The breakup for me means the start line to get things in place again. To start new, start fresh. I'm currently excited to 'fix' myself so finding someone is not the top priority now. I probably want to cherish this alone time some more because by the time I'm with someone, especially when I get married, I need to be responsible, a mature human being who reduces the time for herself. I think those who already get married are brave, they give themselves to a partnership for a lifetime, I mean, colliding two heads is not easy! But, of course, if you stuck with the right partner, it will be a great journey.

I think it's better to be single than be in a relationship with a wrong piece of puzzle. Anyway, let's find our paths, live it, be good, be happy, and as always, no comparing!

What to do after breakup: become a volunteer in Asian African Carnival

Cheers!