I Promise I (Won't) Love You

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Me

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The Unspoken Tears

For those who are wondering where I am, well...
I can't tell much...
But, I'm still alive, thanks God.
God still loves me, God still gives me another chance.
The thing is maybe I am so difficult to understand, so God keeps me in this state.

I'm sorry if I offended some of you to not responded properly. I'm such a heartless bitch sometimes.
But believe me, I love all my friends, family, and those who care about me. I just don't have something to "bring". And that's why I feel like I'm not belong anywhere. I'm on my own.

Sometimes I feel lonely when I'm alone.
But sometimes alone is good. I do enjoy being alone. I talk to myself a lot. Freak? I know.

Is this the life that I want?
No.
I'm still working it out.

So, please. Don't ever judge me.
Maybe it is me who creates negative feelings and thoughts. Maybe it is me who doesn't believe in myself. Maybe it is me who judge that I'm useless and have no skill.

Either way, I want this passes.. soon.

When something hit me, when I supposed to cry--I can't cry.
I don't know whether I'm getting stronger or I don't have a heart anymore to cry.
But the truth is, I want to cry, I want to spill the bitterness out of my heart.
Not a single tear drip.
I'm just crying on the inside.

But I'm still alive.
This means God has a plan for me tomorrow.
And me, as human, as God's creation, will wake up tomorrow. Strive without knowing what will happen in the future.

Please Allah, protect me from any harm.
Keep me away from any doubtful thought about You.
Please keep the faith on my head and heart.
Show me the best way.

I know I am something because You don't create garbage.

That's Life

Ah! This song! :')

When life is hard, when everybody seems to against you.. have faith in Allah and keep running.

(Don't let it get you, don't let it get you down
For this world keeps on spinning 'round)

That's life
That's what all the people say
You're riding high in April
You're shot down in May
I know I'm gonna change that tune
When I'm back on top in June

I say that's life
& as funny as it may seem
Some people get their kicks
Stompin' on your dreams
But I don't let it, let it get me down
'Cause this fine ol' world keeps spinning 'round

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn & a king
I've been up & down & over & out
But I know one thing
Each time I find myself, flat on this face
I pick myself up & get back in the race

That's life
I can't deny it
I thought of quitting, baby
This heart wasn't gonna buy it
And if I didn't think it was worth one single try
I'd jump right on a big bird & then I'd fly

I've been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn & a king
I've been up & down & over & out
And I know one thing
Each time I find myself flat on my face
I pick myself up & get back in the race

That's life
That's life & I can't deny it
Many times I thought of cutting out
But my heart won't buy it
But if there's nothing shakin' come this here July
I'm gonna roll
I'm gonna roll
I'm gonna roll myself up in a big ball & die
Can't deny it
That's life

Cheers!

Updates

Have I told you that I've turned 23 on last 5th August?
I checked my bio and I realized I haven't edited it yet :p

I didn't celebrate it, though. I think my 23rd birthday is the most ordinary birthday I ever had. But still, there's  always my lovely lovely friends. They gave me a rainbow jar-cake. Well, not specially for me, it was also for other friends who were born on August. Walaupun akhirnya sih diabisin sendiri juga :p

me (5 August), Yosay (10), Astri (10), Fida (25)

(Tanggal 4 Agustus itu ada buka bareng Mikro dan sampe malem, jadi sekalian dirayain. At around 11 pm, they started singing Happy Birthday, I'm not even 23 yet, hehe. Dan itu muka lusuh hasil pulang tes Nestle dari Jakarta. All photos taken by Jara)

I didn't updated it on a blogpost. I think part of me rejected the fact how fast time flies. And I really don't want to count how fast it is.

However, talk about updates, here's an update from London Met:

(from www.londonmet.ac.uk)
London Met rejects UKBA's attack on the higher Education Sector
London Metropolitan University has tonight instructed its lawyers, Penningtons Solicitors LLP, to commence urgent legal action to challenge the revocation of its Highly Trusted status for sponsoring international students, so that its students can return to study as a matter of urgency.   

Following the leak of the UK Border Agency's (UKBA) decision 8 days ago, which 'announced' the revocation, the University has now had the opportunity to read the report. Working with its advisors, the University has conducted a thorough review of UKBA's ‘evidence’, and in the strongest possible terms challenges the outcome. 

There are 6 points of facts that will be used to debate against UKBA's decision to revoke its HTS. I think it's too long to post here, I appreciate my reader who don't attach to a lengthy post (berasa punya banyak reader aja :p). If you're interested, just click on the link.

They (London Met) say that on 3rd September they will email every affected students. I already have an unconditional offer, does it make me considered as a student? Cause I haven't received any email from them.

Okay, then. Bye-bye

Cheers!

Mata Siwer

Mata siwer baca 3 judul email sekaligus, jadinya kaya dialog:

Denny Santoso : "Kenali sebab rasa lapar Hawa."

Merry Riana + Disdus : "Hawa, mau sop buntut?"

:))))))))

Btw, Denny Santoso adalah seorang pakar nutrisi, olahraga dan diet. Gue subscribe panduan dietnya by email. Cukup mengedukasi, walaupun dia jualan suplemen juga, tapi tetep ngasih tips-tips yang bisa dipraktekin tanpa suplemen.

Sedangkan Merry Riana adalah seorang motivator yang nulis buku pertamanya kalo ga salah judulnya A Gift From Friend. Yang ini sih, iseng aja subscribe, tapi isi emailnya kebanyakan promosi acara charitynya. Jadi Merry Riana ini ceritanya pas umur 20 punya cita-cita untuk bebas secara finansial ketika berulangtaun ke-30. Terus pas umurnya 26, dia berhasil menghasilkan 1 juta dollar, usahanya sukses sampai sekarang dan cita-citanya tercapai.

Kalau Groupon Disdus ini kaya tempat promosi dari mulai baju, tas, kuliner sampai paket liburan dengan potongan harga yang bisa didapet kalau kita belinya dari si Disdus ini. Pas liat potongan harganya, lumayan juga sih, kaya setengahnya gitu. Tentunya gue yang belum berpenghasilan ini hanyalah ngiler dan bercita-cita buat beli sesuatu dari Disdus ketika punya uang nanti. Bukan buat diri sendiri aja, tapi lumayan kan kalau mau nraktir-nraktir pake paket dari Disdus :)

Cheers!

Bad News from London Met :(

So, my friend told me about this bad news last night.

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(from www.telegraph.co.uk)

London Met banned from issuing visas to foreign students

More than 2,000 international students are facing deportation after London Metropolitan University was banned from teaching foreign students amid fears many are using the courses simply to get a British visa.

More than 2,000 international students have been left in limbo after a university was stripped of its right to admit foreigners following an investigation that exposed "serious systemic failures".

It found a quarter of overseas students sampled at London Metropolitan University did not have permission to stay in the country while a "significant proportion" did not have a good standard of English, and that in more than half of cases, there was no proof they were turning up to lectures.

The university had its Highly Trusted Status (HTS) for sponsoring international students revoked and will no longer be allowed to authorise visas, following the probe by the UK Border Agency.

More than 2,000 could now face being deported within 60 days unless they find a place on another course that is recognised by the Government.

Universities minister David Willetts has set up a task force to help "genuine students who are affected through no fault of their own" with advice and help including finding other institutions where they can complete their studies.

The decison to remove HTS was condemned as "disgusting" by the National Union of Students, which accused the Government of using international students as "a political football" and suggested it could "endanger the continuation of higher education as a successful export industry".

Keith Vaz, chairman of the Home Affairs Select Committee, said the move could harm Britain's world reputation as a prime destination for higher education, saying the move had left "thousands of students in limbo" at the "worst possible time" at the start of the academic year.

But immigration minister Damian Green defended the "sensible measures" to enforce rules that were designed to prevent foreigners abusing study visas by simply using them so they could come to Britain for work.

He said the move would not be replicated at other institutions and that in other cases where the UKBA had warned of failings, action had quickly been taken to resolve them.

Mr Green said the university had proved to be a "very, very deficient" sponsor because of the alleged breaches over right ti stay, proficiency in English, and attendance/

"Any one of those breaches would be serious," he told BBC Radio 4's Today programme. "We found all three of those breaches at London Metropolitan.

"What we found here is a serious systemic failure where it appears that the university doesn't have the capacity to be a proper sponsor and to have confidence that the students coming have the right to be here in the first place.

London Metropolitan University's HTS status was suspended last month while it was examined. The university announced on its website last night that it had been revoked with "hugely significant and far-reaching" implications.

A UKBA spokesman said: "London Metropolitan University's licence to sponsor non-EU students has been revoked after it failed to address serious and systemic failings that were identified by the UK Border Agency six months ago.

"We have been working with them since then, but the latest audit revealed problems with 61% of files randomly sampled. Allowing London Metropolitan University to continue to sponsor and teach international students was not an option."

Professor Eric Thomas, president of Universities UK, said there were other ways to address UKBA's concerns and the university's licence should only have been revoked as a last resort.

He said: "The UKBA's decision to revoke London Metropolitan University's licence will cause anxiety and distress to those many legitimate international students currently studying at London Metropolitan, and their families."

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I checked on the London Met's website and they highlighted the issue. However, the last update was on August 29:

(from www.londonmet.ac.uk)

The University regrets to announce that as at 8pm on Wednesday 29th August 2012, the UK Border Agency (UKBA) has revoked its Highly Trusted Status for sponsoring international students. Please see the earlier press statements on this page (below) for the context of this decision. 

The implications of the revocation are hugely significant and far-reaching, and the University has already started to deal with these.  It will be working very closely with the UKBA, HEFCE, the National Union of Students and its own Students' Union.

This does not affect UK and EU students. 

Our ABSOLUTE PRIORITY is to our students, both current and prospective, and the University will meet all its obligations to them.

The University has set up a Help Centre to support and advise students. The number is             +44 (0) 20 7133 4141      

A fuller announcement will be made on Thursday 30th August 2012.

Malcolm Gillies
Vice-Chancellor

Wednesday 29 August, 2012

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I also searched videos about this:

There are three articles in Indonesia about this: from BBC Indonesia, DIKTI website (though these two are just the translation from Telegraph) and sort of a news portal called Hidayatullah (this one is a proper article).

So, it's like a chaos inside me. At first, I really didn't know what to do--well, I still do until now. I thought maybe it's best not to panic and wait London Met to encounter this problem and they will have a good news at the end. But it turns out to be a really serious problem. Kepi told me that I have to find another university. She said that there is no chance to go to London Met anymore.

I don't know, I feel like disappointed and relieved at the same time. Disappointed, of course. I was over the moon when I said that I successfully enrolled at London Met. I told my parents (and then they told it to relatives), sisters, friends, Refa and his parents. This is not only London Met's failure, I feel like it is also my failure. I don't know how to tell my family about this, especially my Dad.

Relieved, because yeah this happens when I still here in Indonesia. I'm not a current student who will be deported in 60 days. If I were, surely I would be pissed about this. It's like the UK kicked you out in the ass. And I would not leave from a country I used to love--in disgrace. Also, you know, it's been ages since I wanted to finish my personal statement for the scholarship. And it has not been finished until now. This makes me think that "well maybe this isn't the best for me, I should have known that if something is always difficult to do, maybe it is a wrong way."--yeah, despite of my great procrastination to do it.

So, that's the news, guys.

See you next time.

Cheers! Chin up!

Sajak Malam

*ambil mic*
Tes, tes.. 
*ngiiing (ceritanya feedback)*

Tulisan ini didedikasikan untuk teman saya yang sedang galau: Venessa Allia.

*lampu sorot ke Veness, wherever she is now*

Dia anaknya hobi banget ngaku-ngaku umurnya 19, padahal jelas-jelas twenty-something :p.
Jadi aja kan, galaunya juga kayak anak 19 tahun, hihihi.

Tapi, memang hati tak dapat berbohong. So, here it is:

Setiap kala bumi yang kupijak memalingkan wajahnya dari matahari, kutuang semua kata yang tak dapat terucap. Bersama hujan yang menderas, kuhanyutkan segala perasaan ini. Kuhempaskan jauh-jauh ke dalam gelap. Biar sunyi saja yang menjadi saksi.

Kau dan aku.
Dua diantara miliaran manusia.
Tak ubahnya selembar daun diantara lebat belantara. Biarkan dimensi itu berada, kita tak pernah tahu kemana takdir akan membawa.

*applause(?)*

Tak perlulah, kawan. 
Dalam senyumnya, setiap kali nama itu disebut, gelisah hatinya. Tapi biarkan kerinduannya menjadi nyanyian sunyi yang syahdu, terbingkai mesra dalam hati yang pilu.

*light fades out*

Cheers!

Dearest

Dalam sebentuk raga kau kurindu.
Tertangkap olehku bayangmu. Bayang-bayang panjang, yang kutatap lekat hingga bersembunyi di balik sekat. Sorot mata dan seutas senyum itu, binar di antara pekat.

Dalam tawa kita berbagi kisah. Tentangmu, tentangku, dan tentang mereka.
Walau jalan hidup yang kita pilih berbeda, kau dan aku hadir di satu masa yang sama.
Saling mengasihi, berpeluh, dan berikrar cita.

Raga kita terpisah jauh, tapi dalam dunia kita tetap satu.
Satu hal pula yang kupinta; jangan pernah memutuskan tali persahabatan ini.
Kejar, kejar cinta dan citamu. Agar kita dapat dipertemukan kembali dengan senyum yang terbingkai dalam wajah-wajah yang bahagia.

:)

Cheers!

Seutas Takdir

Tulisan ini dibuat sesaat setelah mandi.

Wait, what?

Yea, why not? Kamar mandi itu sumbernya inspirasi. Jadi selama berada di dalamnya, entah kenapa pikiran dan imajinasi kaya berhamburan kemana-mana. Pengen rasanya diwadahin ke ember. Mungkin karena kepala kena air juga kali ya, jadi seger gitu. Whatever it is, sangat penting untuk segera menulis ide itu sebelum lupa.

Andai jalan hidup manusia dipandu dengan seutas benang yang terbentang dari zaman rahim sampai zaman kubur nanti,

Tentu tak ada amarah, tak ada sengketa, konflik, dan perselisihan karena masing-masing meniti benangnya sendiri. Tak akan tercipta istilah pencarian jati diri karena yang perlu kita lakukan adalah mengikuti benang dan melihat kemana ia akan membawa kita.

Namun, Tuhan tidak berkehendak demikian. Tali hidup kita sudah diputus semenjak kita lahir, orang lalu menyebutnya ari-ari. Namun, tali itu tidak sepenuhnya hilang, kita hanya tak bisa melihatnya.

Kita sedang meniti tali itu, sampai sekarang, apapun yang kita lakukan sekarang, kita sedang berjalan di atas tali itu. Orang lalu menyebutnya takdir. Mungkin manusia akan melepas imannya jika benang takdir itu terlihat. Tak peduli akan usaha, tak bergelut dengan keputusan, tak berhadapan dengan kesulitan, karena jalannya sudah ada.

Manusia adalah makhluk-makhluk kecil yang ditempatkan Tuhan di sebuah labirin raksasa. Labirin dengan lika-liku rumit yang berisi jutaan jalan hidup manusia beserta kemungkinan-kemungkinannya. Kita ditempatkan disitu tanpa mampu melihat jalan hidup.

Lalu kemana kita harus pergi? Labirin itu memiliki banyak jalan keluar, namun hanya satu tujuan: kembali pada Tuhan.

Bit lame? Mungkin karena waktu itu nulisnya langsung banget tanpa editing.

Okay, that's it for today. Bye-bye!

Cheers!

Money Can't Buy You A Happiness (??)

Kata orang, uang ga bisa membeli kebahagiaan. “Money can't buy you a happiness.”

Kata gue, itu bohong besar.

Munafik banget orang yang ngomong kaya gitu. Well yeah, maybe at a certain level of wealth, you reach a moment when money can’t get you a thing anymore. Which means, semua kebutuhan pokok; sandang, pangan, papan,dan gadget (oh hell yeah, di jaman ketika tukang ojek dan tukang sayur dipanggil melalui sms, gadget adalah kebutuhan pokok, apapun bentuknya, minimal handphone) sudah terpenuhi. Ini termasuk sandang, misalnya, money can’t buy you happiness adalah saat lo udah punya semua model baju yang lo pengen, ketika lo pengen sebuah pakaian dan itu gampang terealisasikan. Satu-satunya baju yang ngga lo beli mungkin kostum dagingnya Lady Gaga. Pangan, satu kasus sama sandang. You name it.

Maksud gue gini, ini bukannya kufur nikmat atau mengagung-agungkan uang. But let’s be rational about it. We live in the world where there’s no free lunch. Kayanya konteks "free lunch" ini lebih ke “lo ga bisa dapetin sesuatu tanpa berusaha”, but since I don’t know what other phrase could fit, so yeah. Eh ada tuh free lunch, di kaya tempat-tempat sosial gitu. Iye, itu yang masak kira-kira dapet beras darimana? Jatuh aja gitu dari langit tiba-tiba ada nasi timbel? Beras sekilo harganya 8000-12000 rupiah, kawan. Mudah bagi Allah untuk kun fayakun, jadilah hujan gorengan. Ga akan ada orang susah, kerempeng, malnutrisi, dan mati kelaparan. Tapi ini ngga kan? Pun Allah tidak menjadikan uang 100.000 nyelip gitu aja di buah manggis misalnya. Ini kaya menjadikan bahwa uang ya harus dicari. Dan karena dicari itu, ketika mendapatkannya, it brings you happiness.

Uang memang bukan segalanya, tapi kita ga bisa hidup tanpa uang. Yes, there is a society who lives without money, people call it the primitives. Suku-suku yang hidupnya jauh dari hingar-bingar modernitas, kaya yang di Ethnic Runaway itu loh. If you say “money doesn’t buy a happiness”, then I will reply, “make your way to the primitives”.

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Gue teringat percakapan beberapa waktu lalu dengan seorang teman. Dia ini temen SMP gue yang juga satu kampus. Dari SMP, dia emang cemerlang anaknya, jago matematika, sedangkan gue berhitung saja sulit. Just recently, temen gue ini lulus S2, sedang gue hidup saja sulit. Jadi waktu itu percakapan kita berlanjut pada ngomongin kuliah versus kerja. Dan temen gue ini berkata:

T: “Ih wa, gimana juga enakan sekolah lagi tau. Kita bebas dengan pikiran kita, ga dikekang orang. Kalau kerja disuruh-suruh orang mulu. Coba sekolah, hanya kita dan otak kita, merdeka.”

Gue diam. Hanya menanggapi dengan anggukan dan senyum.

Here’s the thing, while there’s a million of people who live in a real poverty, hidup gue sih tidak kekurangan. Gue masih bisa makan enak, di badan masih melekat pakaian layak, dan tidur masih di kasur nyaman. Kebutuhan primer masih terpenuhi, alhamdulillah. 

Let’s just say it: terbatas. 

Terbatas dalam artian, gue terbatas untuk megang uang sendiri.

Maka, gue yang berpikiran naif bahwa kerja = uang, berpikir sebaliknya dari temen gue itu. Saat diam itu, gue berpikir “ya mendingan kerja lah, dapet duit”. Intinya sih, dari situ gue berpikir tentang kemerdekaan finansial. Dunia ini emang ga ada yang hitam putih, yang namanya uang bisa datang dari mana aja. Kuliah sampe mampus juga bisa kok menghasilkan uang. Biasanya kalau udah studi S3 kesono emang mainannya proyek yang digaji tinggi. Dan kerja juga mungkin ga selamanya indah, mungkin kena marah bos, lembur, proposal gagal, dll dll. Dan jaman sekarang, pilihan ga cuma kuliah atau kerja, jalur entrepreneur kan lagi banyak diminati. Apapun jalannya, pasti ada enak ga enaknya. Dan apapun itu juga, money will be always with you, either as a blessing or a disaster.

Gue sih saat itu, dengan kondisi keuangan pribadi yang seperti “ini”, berpikir bahwa kemerdekaan finansial sounds more fun than intellectual independence.

To illustrate, waktu itu gue ngomongin topik ini sama Mei.

M : “Aku juga pengen bisa beliin sarung buat Bapa aku. Sekarang mah belum bisa.”

H:  “Itu dia, Mei. Kalau sekarang kondisi km terbatas, ga bisa beliin sarung buat Bapa kamu. Nanti, ketika kamu punya cukup uang, kamu BEBAS nentuin sarung mana yang mau kamu beli. Mau Cap Gajah Duduk, mau yang motifnya salur, apa kotak-kotak, kamu bebas nentuin. Satu-satunya yang bikin kamu bingung adalah motif, bukan uangnya. Itu yang aku sebut kemerdekaan finansial.”

Ini pure pemikiran gue aja ya, kalau ada yang ga setuju atau gimana, ya monggo. Gue pun tidak menganggap kemerdekaan intelektual tidak penting. Nulis di blog ini adalah salah satu bentuk kemerdekaan to express my thoughts. Setiap orang punya pemikiran yang beda-beda, dan itu terbentuk dari ketika kita kecil sampai sekarang. Nilai-nilai yang ditanamkan orangtua, lingkungan keluarga dan teman akan sangat berpengaruh. If you want to really understand it, you have to walk on my shoes. And fyi, sekarang gue belum kerja ataupun kuliah (lagi). Jadi kalau ada yang berpikir bahwa gue such a grumpy and pathetic pengangguran, ya silahkan saja. Actually, I am pleased bahwa ada yang baca sampai sepanjang ini. :p

Hey, what a coincidence banget ya ini ngomongin kemerdekaan dan hari ini tanggal 17 Agustus. Jadi, buat gue, kemerdekaan yang belum diraih adalah kemerdekaan finansial. Because money DOES buy you a happiness.

What’s yours?

Cheers!
Dirgahayu Indonesiaku! :)

Death Is An Illusion

I found this article when I was eating at sahur time. As a scientist, my dad always curious about scientific journal and article (yaiyalah! :p). Not only his area of expertise, which is Oceanography, but also he attracts to science generally. He often print out one of the most interesting article and bring it home. So, this is one of them:

Is Death An Illusion? Evidence Suggests Death Isn't The End

After the death of his old friend, Albert Einstein said “Now Besso has departed from this strange world a little ahead of me. That means nothing. People like us … know that the distinction between past, present and future is only a stubbornly persistent illusion.”

New evidence continues to suggest that Einstein was right – death isan illusion.

Our classical way of thinking is based on the belief that the world has an objective observer-independent existence. But a long list of experiments shows just the opposite. We think life is just the activity of carbon and an admixture of molecules – we live awhile and then rot into the ground.

We believe in death because we’ve been taught we die. Also, of course, because we associate ourselves with our body and we know bodies die. End of story. But biocentrism – a new theory of everything – tells us death may not be the terminal event we think. Amazingly, if you add life and consciousness to the equation, you can explain some of the biggest puzzles of science. For instance, it becomes clear why space and time – and even the properties of matter itself – depend on the observer. It also becomes clear why the laws, forces, and constants of the universe appear to be exquisitely fine-tuned for the existence of life.

Until we recognize the universe in our heads, attempts to understand reality will remain a road to nowhere.

Consider the weather ‘outside’: You see a blue sky, but the cells in your brain could be changed so the sky looks green or red. In fact, with a little genetic engineering we could probably make everything that is red vibrate or make a noise, or even make you want to have sex like with some birds. You think its bright out, but your brain circuits could be changed so it looks dark out. You think it feels hot and humid, but to a tropical frog it would feel cold and dry. This logic applies to virtually everything. Bottom line: What you see could not be present without your consciousness.

In truth, you can’t see anything through the bone that surrounds your brain. Your eyes are not portals to the world. Everything you see and experience right now – even your body – is a whirl of information occurring in your mind. According to biocentrism, space and time aren’t the hard, cold objects we think. Wave your hand through the air – if you take everything away, what’s left? Nothing. The same thing applies for time. Space and time are simply the tools for putting everything together.

Consider the famous two-slit experiment. When scientists watch a particle pass through two slits in a barrier, the particle behaves like a bullet and goes through one slit or the other. But if you don’t watch, it acts like a wave and can go through both slits at the same time. So how can a particle change its behavior depending on whether you watch it or not? The answer is simple – reality is a process that involves your consciousness.

Or consider Heisenberg’s famous uncertainty principle. If there is really a world out there with particles just bouncing around, then we should be able to measure all their properties. But you can’t. For instance, a particle’s exact location and momentum can’t be known at the same time. So why should it matter to a particle what you decide to measure? And how can pairs of entangled particles be instantaneously connected on opposite sides of the galaxy as if space and time don’t exist? Again, the answer is simple: because they’re not just ‘out there’ – space and time are simply tools of our mind.

Death doesn’t exist in a timeless, spaceless world. Immortality doesn’t mean a perpetual existence in time, but resides outside of time altogether.

Our linear way of thinking about time is also inconsistent with another series of recent experiments. In 2002, scientists showed that particles of light “photons” knew – in advance – what their distant twins would do in the future. They tested the communication between pairs of photons. They let one photon finish its journey – it had to decide whether to be either a wave or a particle. Researchers stretched the distance the other photon took to reach its own detector. However, they could add a scrambler to prevent it from collapsing into a particle. Somehow, the first particle knew what the researcher was going to do before it happened – and across distances instantaneously as if there were no space or time between them. They decide not to become particles before their twin even encounters the scrambler. It doesn’t matter how we set up the experiment. Our mind and its knowledge is the only thing that determines how they behave. Experiments consistently confirm these observer-dependent effects.

Bizarre? Consider another experiment that was recently published in the prestigious scientific journal Science (Jacques et al, 315, 966, 2007). Scientists in France shot photons into an apparatus, and showed that what they did could retroactively change something that had already happened in the past. As the photons passed a fork in the apparatus, they had to decide whether to behave like particles or waves when they hit a beam splitter. Later on – well after the photons passed the fork – the experimenter could randomly switch a second beam splitter on and off. It turns out that what the observer decided at that point, determined what the particle actually did at the fork in the past. At that moment, the experimenter chose his past.

Of course, we live in the same world. But critics claim this behavior is limited to the microscopic world. But this ‘two-world’ view (that is, one set of physical laws for small objects, and another for the rest of the universe including us) has no basis in reason and is being challenged in laboratories around the world. A couple years ago, researchers published a paper in Nature (Jost et al, 459, 683, 2009) showing that quantum behavior extends into the everyday realm. Pairs of vibrating ions were coaxed to entangle so their physical properties remained bound together when separated by large distances (“spooky action at a distance,” as Einstein put it). Other experiments with huge molecules called ‘Buckyballs’ also show that quantum reality extends beyond the microscopic world. And in 2005, KHC03 crystals exhibited entanglement ridges one-half inch high, quantum behavior nudging into the ordinary world of human-scale objects.

We generally reject the multiple universes of Star Trek as fiction, but it turns out there is more than a morsel of scientific truth to this popular genre. One well-known aspect of quantum physics is that observations can’t be predicted absolutely. Instead, there is a range of possible observations each with a different probability. One mainstream explanation, the “many-worlds” interpretation, states that each of these possible observations corresponds to a different universe (the ‘multiverse’). There are an infinite number of universes and everything that could possibly happen occurs in some universe. Death does not exist in any real sense in these scenarios. All possible universes exist simultaneously, regardless of what happens in any of them.

Life is an adventure that transcends our ordinary linear way of thinking. When we die, we do so not in the random billiard-ball-matrix but in the inescapable-life-matrix. Life has a non-linear dimensionality – it’s like a perennial flower that returns to bloom in the multiverse.

“The influences of the senses,” said Ralph Waldo Emerson “has in most men overpowered the mind to the degree that the walls of space and time have come to look solid, real and insurmountable; and to speak with levity of these limits in the world is the sign of insanity.”

Well, that was quite long. But it is worth to read, don't you think?
Wait, sejak kapan gue jadi geek begini? (for God's sake, look at the new label!)

My point of view on the next post!

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The Good Mood Rises

Hello.
Yes, I know. It's been a while. My posts were mostly my set from Polyvore which is confusing for some reader. "What reader? I don't even care whether you blog or not," maybe some of you say so. Okay *meme okay-guy

Well, anyway. During my hiatus, I didn't discover drug for HIV nor I found some new species on Mars. No. I just went to the Netherlands, visited my sister and her little family. It was on June 20 until July 20. People may think that I went so-called Euro Trip, means visiting at least 3 EU countries. That's very common among my friends who study in Europe. Italy, Belgium, and France are among the most popular destination beside the Netherlands. But no, I didn't do the Euro Trip. I just went to France, Paris to be exact.

Full story of my trip?
Well maybe some other time because it is very late and I have to sleep otherwise I can't get up for sahur.

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Keep Calm and Go to London

Hello there, ladies and gentlemen.


I have been brushing on Tumblr, I'm so sorry. Tumblr is like my new playground where I can spend all day long without concerning a time. Especially there's the fandom which is brilliant and posts hilarious stuff. Alright, I have said that sometime before.


Well, now. I looked a scholarship info two weeks ago in here, and found a link to the Westminster University, London. I know this is a bit lame--because there's must be millions of similar videos about London--but this is the one I want to share with you.


And excuse me while I'm asdghjjklihw.

But some people say that Westminster University is horrible. I don't know whether this is true or not, I watched tens videos related to Westminster and the comments were not a complimentary. But this video is good, though, well-edited.


The fact that it's in Central London makes me...

If someone happens to know the facts about the Westminster University, please let me know. Thank you.

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